HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! =D

whn is the last time jeanne post an entry? xD

so a new year starts with reflecting on the previous year =) and moving forward from now this very second =) lets start with reflecting bout the previous year tat has jus ended afew days ago =)

nothing about how ppl smashed window in SMRT or the passing on of the person that created this gadget that i am using now to type this post, but how much jeanne had grown in year 2011 =) not in terms of height and age of cuz -.- ( i dun wanna grow any taller eh and definitely not reminding myself that i had owned a key necklace x) ) so i had went thru so much from being a student to a permanent teacher and back to a student again =) , i met so many ppl and learnt so much from them, i experienced deaf on one ear for a month plus, i turned 21, i killed a ladybird with my own hands for the first time, i board the longest flight in my life, i felt snow on my hand, and if i continue… the lists will go non stop, so… i shall write my reflection in terms of messages now =)

Dear mummy,

谢谢你每次都给我你 110％ 的支持, and always giving me the best advice i could ever have. loving me with all you could and giving me the best you can… i have always been glad-full to be able to help you up with all my might and share your burden in this family all these years, it sure was tiring but as long as everyone is happy, i tot it all pays well =) … so mummy dun worry ^-^

i dunno how i can thank you in supporting me in this new relationship… this relationship sure is a tough journey and without your support i would have collapsed long time ago… it is a new chapter of my life and it is a new chapter of daddy and your life too… although daddy isn’t ready to flip to this chapter yet i thank you for walking this chapter with me this far… It must have been hard for you to lie with me many times and hiding the truth from daddy… although you always put your best smile infront of me… i know… there is always a percentage of bitterness in it. But without hesitating you always swallowed both sweet and bitterness… only asking for the best happiness for your daughter…

i wanna tell you mi mi, because of your blessing i m really a happy girl experiencing another different kind of love =) i dunno how i can thank you for that… on top of that, i wanna say sorry to you… sorry if i couldn’t give you the same amount of time i have always given you… but as i grow up i found that all i can give everyone now is quality time and whenever i can give you all some quantity time… i really really treasure them…

i also wanted to thank you for spending so much money on our facial and feeling sad when there is no improvement. When we are anxious for our skin you are even more anxious than us. My new year resolution is to study as hard as the last semester =) so that i can still get my bursary and continue to support myself economically =D and hopefully save some of them too ^-^

lastly mi mi 我爱你 =D time spent with you may decrease but my love to mimi will never ever decrease k =’) hope mimi will have a great year ahead =)

Dear Daddy,

i am sorry… other than sorry… i dunno what other words i can use to describe my feelings to you… i am sorry daddy for growing up being such a dishonest girl… you must had felt really sad and disappointed if you know your daughter is such a liar… i din want to lie but i dun wan daddy to be angry, keep thinking, and frown either…

many a times now… i would have rather daddy do what you did to me when i was a small girl… holding a cane on one hand and holding my little hand on the other, with the most disappointing eyes on your strictest face and caned me… leaving a red and painful mark on my small hand but an even more painful one in your heart… asking me ” will you still lie next time? ” i… shook my head…

although i am as disappointing the very time daddy say no to my relationship… just like a rising balloon that burst and fall… i felt totally empty… i tot daddy will nod head and give me an assuring smile but… daddy had actually unconsciously stopped me from experiencing a diffn kind of happiness i have never experienced before. From that moment… i keep asking myself why good girls have to cry to slp upteen nights…

i know daddy is doing me good… although… no one will agrees that crying to slp is healthy and increasing of heartbeat constantly (due to lying) is good…i understand daddy’s worries, daddy’s shielding me from as much threats and daddy’s unbearable of letting me go… but if you never let a bird out from the cage to fly, it won’t experience how flying is like and won’t see how big the world is… it may get injured but it may not too… if it never experience how injured is like it will never know how it feels.

my new year resolution, is to say lesser lies to daddy and be your honest girl eventually… i hope daddy will not be angry whenever i am honest to you… and my wish is that one day daddy will ask me about aik chuan instead of me telling daddy… and my greatest wish is when i can tell you honestly that daddy, i have a boyfriend.

on top of that daddy, thank you for lending me car almost whenever i need it, asking me how i m doing in sch and in work and driving me whenever you have the time to when i need. Despite that many tears dropped these two years were because of my guilty-ness towards daddy and what daddy said, you are forever the best daddy in my world. =) thank you too for always involving me in your projects, although it brought lotsa scars and bruises on my hands and legs, lotsa tiring days and even more filled up timetable to me, the life experiences that i was exposed to is as invaluable too. 

although i know you won’t be seeing this post, i always hope that this quote is true ” whenever you say a silent thank you, the person will feel it. ” thank you daddy i love you =) may this year be a smooth year for you =)

Dearest Grandma,

=D May health and happiness be with you this whole year! last year has been quite a tough year for you too =) but regardless of what we will always be there for you and support you all the way =)

thank you for still cooking for us constantly ^-^ i love you grandma and i had a great bdae with grandma last year =D my new year resolution is to eat as many dinner at home with you as possible despite of staying in hall ^-^ and continues to accompany grandma for your three monthly injection and hospital consultation whenever i am free on your appointment days =)

Dearest sister/dude/idiot/whatever x), 

firstly, haha thank you for that touching msg in fb =) it inspires me to write my resolution this way too x) tadah~~

to be honest i felt most comfortable with you in this world x) you saw all the unglams of me and vice versa x) we have the funniest jokes as if we are two laughing bones that whenever it joins, it will start laughing keke well you get what i m trying to say ya? x)

thank you so much for reading my super duper unpleasant looking assignment and proof reading them without complaining at all! =D more to come more to come *hint hint* x) keke i m glad that i could help you up in your assignments too as since you step into upper sec, i din have that kinda time and knowledge to like guide you like how big sister do (you know… lik giving younger sister tuition every week that kind) cuz my academic isnt that A+ ya know it eh. work hard k =) u are a smart girl ( at least smarter than me x) ) i m sure you can strive thru this year and the next year as well =)

thank you too for living on with the fact that your sister has a boyfriend… =) putting up with my tight timetable and my disappearing at home becuz of staying in hall… my resolution is to have a sister day every month =) haha give me a date! i guess since my bdae and ur bdae falls on 26th of june and july so…. every 26th shall be sister day bah =) blink your eyes means you agreed x) hax gotcha! =D

so gonna be mushy here but… i love you sis =) whether or not you will grow taller than me or not you are still the best younger sister in my world =) hope you will have a happy year ahead =D

Dearest dear,

What can i say… but thanking you for appearing in my life… you mixed up my life with happiness and sadness and because of this mixing up it makes me treasure this relationship even more…

you have given me the love i never had before, making me feel like a princess i have never dreamt of and accompanying me like a talking shadow…

thank you for being such a wonderful boyfriend with such a high limitation of understanding… because of your understanding it gives me the courage to persevere in this relationship. i have been so afraid to get into relationship as i know i can’t give my partner quantity time because i m such a busy girl… but you always tolerate with my super inflexible schedule ( so inflexible that because of me you din even get to watch a single movie in this long holiday =(… ) and my limited time whenever we met…

thankyou for making me feel so welcome in the nice second family that you bring me to on the first day when i m your girlfriend =) you all always give me the courage to hang on and take care of me like a second daughter. i m honestly touched when uncle gave me the equally big crab’s hand ( i dunno what it is called =l ) as mei mei and you all involved me to all family’s events. i m sorry i can’t dine with you all often and have to turn down your all’s invitation to dinners with you all. but i tot times spent with everyone is really warm =)

thank you for being such a lovely boyfriend… you give me the care and concerns that only mummy can give x) you worry for me every time i helped daddy or when i m sick or when i m alone, etc that even i din worry so much… you taught me how to take care of myself that since young till now, if there isn’t your appearance in my life, i may had grown up totally like the son of the house x) putting it in a more unpleasant way, is that you reminded me that, i am a girl… =’) you dunno that you are the greatest gift i ever have in my life…

you always assured me that you will be there and never leave me but you always tell me that future is future no one can tell… but dear, whether if my hair will turn white with you or not… x) you are still the best gift in my life. i love you dear =D happy 13th monthsary ^-^

my new year resolution is to spend as much quality time as i can with dear and attend all dear’s family events =)

Dearest Tong lei,

eversince tong lei have a partner and eventually i have a partner too, time spent with you greatly decreased er… cuz we have to juggle among family, boyfriend, and friends from uni/poly/sec…x)

but i m glad our relationship never fade =D thank you tong lei for always trying to find time that we can met =) even for jus a short period of time =) sometimes i did reminisce the time when we sms frm morn till night xD hahax! the laughters we have and the tears we drop tgt =) 

i m glad-ful too that tong lei have grown to be an even stronger girl =D seeing tong lei working in the coffeshop dessert stall honestly makes my heart ache er =’) but at the same time warmth my heart too… the tai tai princess who like to shop shop like tai tai and sit on the “throne” like a princess de tong lei even walked around bugis with me in t-shirt and shorts! =’D

Huggs tong lei =) once a tong lei, forever a tong lei ^-^ i m glad tong lei has overcame one of the hardest part of your life these three years… =) i will overcome mine now de =) and stay as strong as tong lei =) my new year resolution is to met up with tong lei other than glisten inc’s bdaes ^-^ i love you tong lei and you know it will never end and! i will never ever forget my dear tong lei de bdae de k! xD keke may this year be a year full of happiness to you =D

Dearest gLiStEn.Inc,

similarly, once a gLiStEn.InC member forever a gLiStEn.InC member =D suddenly tot of our group name… actually… why glisten inc? xD and i forgotten that it was me who give us such a cranky name -.-

but i tot it speaks quite a truth eh =) glisten = shine. i tot each of us really did shine in our own diffn light all these years eh =D you all uds what i meant rite x) heex

but that oso means that we are all busying in our own individual world too… chances of meeting up even for birthdays are getting lesser too but it is totally fine er =) so long as we know each other is always there for each other ^-^ this group is a group of ppl i treasure alot in my life too =) since pri sch i tot i will jus live my sch days alone… but you all changes my sch life =) 5 years since we parted from northvista and we are there for one another =)

my new year resolution is that i can celebrate each of our bdae with everyone and oso small meeting ups maybe for k boxing or jus tea breaks in a even smaller groups =D May this year be a year of joy and smoothness =D take care k =))

Dear Artarantula,

haha that means the 18 of us that stuck with one another for 3 years in nafa ^.^

Oi!! dun met up soon i will forget how you all look k! xD hahahax x)

that will never happens lah =) although our annual meet ups instead of 18, but jus 3 turns up… i uds that getting all 18 to meet up is really hard =) esp when half of us are teachers now! =D i hope you all are doing STILL fine =) i uds how hard being a teacher is keke we all knew that =) but we still strive our best and pull through wherever we are =)

when i went back to NAFA and see the dirty floor of our studio xD it really makes me miss the times we laugh and cry and hooray in the studio =) sneaking into our comp lab and missed how we eat at the corridor every mon x)

my new year resolution this year will be =D to have a successful annual meet up =D at least once? x) i love you girls =D take care and all the best k =D

Dear EMM MEHH~,

xDD HAHAHA! jus thinking bout tat name makes me laugh lik an idiot infront of the comp xD kekeke

six more days!! and we will have to run another marathon! i tot i m really lucky to have new classmates like you all =D who see my unglams in such a short period of time -.- and of cuz old classmates whom i will never get sick and tired of looking at xDD and whom i m am even more grateful to have. =D You all had accompanied me all the way from nafa year one till now =) it jus makes me smile seeing you all in sch everyday ^-^

“coffee is coffee! tea is tea!! you cannot mix one!! dun anyhow mix lah!” who says that! xD tat uncle in the coffee show ah not me x) keke =) i tot it was a nice combination of the class with ppl coming from diffn tertiary sch or same tertiary sch but diffn course =) we met up and become classmates in this drama class that we are all so unfamiliar to, a totally new subject but we are all so comfortable with each other and shy at all to express ourselves! =D doing actions and saying things that even our parents never see before x)

may this year be full of joy in class and a much smoother year than the previous one! x)

Dearest students,

haha i dunno how many of you will read this =) but if you ever get to read this long post with bad english x) i hope you all had a great sch reopening today and will enjoy your sch days =)

same thing, i hope all of you can do well in your exams this year =) i m sure you all had done a good job last year ^-^ but i m sure too that everyone can do an even better this year =) you all may take arts this year or may not, it doesnt matter =) once my students always my student and i can only hope for the best for all of you regardless if you are from which school =D

there is no naughty student in my dictionary =) only students who have to put in slightly more effort and students who need a diffn way to learn =) as there are 40 of you in a class in average, and a teacher can’t possibly teach in 40 diffn ways ya x) so it is very impt for you to tell us what we can help you and the most impt of all =) help yourself! =D may all of you have a good and fruitful year ahead and strive all exams with myriad of colours =))

Dearest me,

=) you wrote such a long new year resolution this year ^-^ you better try to follow them as close as possible ah =D one resolution for myself x) is to have more time with myself =)

Dearest everyone,

May this year be full of joy, happiness, peace and harmony to everyone =D live everyday with smiles and laughters ^.^ without anyone of you i met in life, i wun be the jeanne i m today =) thankyou for coming into my life and ho hO HO HAPPY NEW YEAR! =D

lesson learnt: sometimes doing things in the opposite way may results positively ^-^

hahax there are many stories that link to this phrase… but anw.. conclusion is that, not neccessarily doing the proper or the expected way is a good way cuz doing it in an indirect or opposite way could be a better choice =)

shortest e.g. is if a mother always shout her head off at a child for doing the wrong thing, the child may be immune to the shouting. however if the mother remain silence after the child did a wrong thing, the child may be terrified why isn’t the mother shouting at him/her and starts to worry if she will burst any moment… =)

=) alright!! really long since i last wrote here, almost 2 months! lotsa things happened of cuz and currently am having my practicum in zhss again! ^.^ heex but anw suddenly wanna write cuz i fel tat recently there r lotsa lessons learnt…. as i said everyday there is bound to hav a lesson to learn and for tis 2 months i had missed out dropping thm down here!! keke so here goes…. the lessons learnt tat i can rmb for these 2 months =)

Lessons Learnt :   =)

a great shower always make your foul mood better =D so after a horrible day, go and take a shower enjoy the water splashing on your skin and washing off your bad moods =)

bcuz i had jus showered, i felt so much better now after having a whole day of shits ( not literally shits tat i kena anw… ) shitty stuffs….. but well it is over now and i m fine =) and learnt more things…..

when sbd criticize your house and esp whn it is in progress of renovating say tis to them ” haiya next tym whn i sell this house to you thn you can go and do tat watever thing k? hahaha!” and tis makes both party fels better….

yap yap firstly you stop tat person from continuing his/her personal judgement and likings and 2ndly you din stop him/ her with her wonderful imaginations and 3rdly you fel better not shouting back at him/ her things lik ” EH! tis my house or ur house!?” lastly you are happy and she is not upset. =)

whn you are angry and you noe that if you act out, it will cause a disasters and sbd may die in your hand ( if you have a knife on your hand), jus kep quiet close your eyes take a deep breath open ur eyes quickly ( or else ppl will tot u are slp standing)

and listen to watever crap the person says but rmb! dun open your mouth except to let him/her finish whatever she/ he wanna say… if you stil wanna say sth… wait til she/he finish thn u say or better still jus kep quiet whn that person felt the silence, she/he noe tat she did sth wrong…… but u are in fault cuz wat u did is jus keping quiet… best of it is nod whn she/ he says and after she/he talks finish you can say things lik ” i can uds where you are moving to.” tat will do. so she will noe she and you are walking a diffn direction and if she continues, fine, be that way… you did the right thing already anw..

whn ppl give you suggestions and thoughts you may not agree immediately BUT wat you shld do immediately is thanks the person for his/her sharing. =)

i have a bad habit of saying huh or hmmm……. and hav a blank lok after ppl giv suggestion eh…. and i feel tat it is really not a very gd thing to do! what i could have done is ” wow gd idea eh! ok gd gd i will think about it =)) thank you!” cuz watever the person share with you he/she took the effort to think for you! so at least acknowledge the person’s effort and concerns. =) and what you shld do next is NOT to forget what the person suggest.. whatever ideas given are ideas tat may assists you! it is not very gd to say wow gd idea! and the next thing you just forget about it and just saying that for the sake of saying it. =)

your idea wil NEVER be the best idea EVER. yes…. (cuz if u always think about it, you have more rooms of improvement and tat you wun find yourself the best cuz finding yourself the best is a act of proudness and having the act of proudness will never lead you anywhere far. and to be honest, yes your idea will NEVER be the best idea ever cuz there will surely be someone elses better than yours ( yes… cont thinking it tis way cuz it is true))

humour is sth tat you shld have at ALL TIMES ^.^

going against sbd is always a thing not to be suggested…. even if tat person is a total bitch or a freaking ass hole. well jus say he is an asshole! (but in a diffn way of cuz) like saying ” you have such a great MENTOR you din invite him/her earlier!” the mentor is the bitch/asshole of cuz and tis wil make ppl laugh and take things easily. =) one more fren is much much better than one more enemy ya? =)

you may be older than sbd but not necessarily wiser.=))

tat is a totaly trueness….. believe me. if the young dude has been playing the violin for 10 years since he/she is 3, and you have been playing violin for 3 years since the age of 30, obviously who will play better? knock your head if you say the young dude and smack your head if you says the old geek. you mus be thinking tat dude play 10 years of cuz better lah! and since i say if you are older than sbd, u may not necessarily be wiser, of cuz i mus be supporting the young dude!! but NO!! not supporting anyone. but!! reminding ppl tat it is not necessarily years of experience tat make you better well you could have more experience of cuz but if you dun use your brain and THINK for 10 years you are doing the same thing you play the same twinkle little stars, but for 3 years tat geek can play bumble bee….. who use the brain more and take the effort to THINK?

if you are doing business and client want a whole new just renovated house to be tear down i repeat, a whole new JUST renovated house to be tear down, so long as they pay the sum of money again why not…….

jus heave a sigh and say o well! another business!! =)) cheers to it ^.^

thinking about future is a MUST! but wat leads you there is even more important NOW! ^.^

a rich guy tots…. in 3 years time i mus buy a lambo marry 4 pretty wives and 2 maids who can tc of my dozens of kids muahahaha and everyday he think sth new ” and i want a jaguzi in the balcony… and! a few yield of swimming pool ” and he continues everday ” AND! i want my house to be 4 storey high perhaps with a see thru lift and servant in the lift at all time” and he continues for 3 years….. but cuz he has been thinking for all tis 3 years… everyday everytime…. he neglected his job…. frm a marvel CEO he make the whole company bankrupt and he left his family business a demolished land…. on the thrid year…. all he can do is to cont his imagination……..

@_@ i shall work hard hard now no matter where i will b going in the future eh…. so long as i work hard i guess i wun regret wherever i m ya? =) and save as much as i can every month… cuz regardless if i go to degree or not i shld shld still save for future yes? =)

if you have any imperfections let it be! it may gone anw… =) but evern if it doesn’t does it matter? =) maybe you are fated to have tat cute piple scar at the middle of your cheek? ^.^

everyone have lots of imperfections some born with some gotten them as they grow… but it doesn’t matter how you gotten it! jus think tat perhaps u have to live with it jus live with it it doesn’t kill you ya? cuz if it does you wun be reading this! yes? so! wat if u lok at others and say how the hell i have such ugly scars yet she dun have….. wel… tats her business why do you care. if you lok lik her wat makes the diffn between the two of you? hmm? hmm?

when the whole world dun uds you… so long as there is one person understands…. tat person represent the whole world eh ^-^

even if tat person is you yourself… =) and!! most imptly if you have tis person who represent the whole world to you, the least thing you can do is not to let him worry about you =’)

p.s. last but not least jeanne is a blessed gal with a lovely bf ^-^ i love you dear =D i really do =’)

haha jeanne s using iphone to tumblr now! =D keke abit hard to type tho but think in this way i should be sble to tumblr more oftenly bah ^-^